Security comes unexpectedly. I knew there was more to come from this and knew I could not lose it. I know I shall be a better person for this relationship. I now know that life is much more beautiful today than the lost existences of my nights torments. I can see that you are greater than I could have first thought. Against my paranoid judgements I shall live victoriously and life shall ensue in glorious beauty.

Look around and see life evoke the truest beauty.

Look beyond the pain and trials and see that life means an opportunity to see wonder.

There is only one reason why I want this year at an end. I am restless. I need to escape before I relapse.

I hope you all go better than I. I will fall and fail...

There was a time I felt I knew the answer to this question, but here and now I find myself sifting through this archive of memories and thoughts in order to once again rehabilitate myself with the answer. Isn't it fascinating how one can be confidant in their beliefs at one time, and then, through lack of focus and development, one can find themselves needing to reinstate the answer- to remember what it was one believes- and to begin again in this small fragment of their path.

Eddie was born with no body and no arms and no legs. Just a head. But despite this slight birth defect his parents loved him very much. So on his sixteenth birthday they run into a doctor that says "Hey, I can give Eddie a body"... so the parents are going totally nuts because finally their kid can have a body and be like other normal people. They go home and are really excited and say "Have we got a surprise for you. It's the best present ever!" and Eddie says "Oh, no, not another fucking hat!"

*dodododedo*spins around*GLARES*What do ya think you're looking at?*Continues GLARE*Yeah that's right you look the other way!*turns other way mumbling to self*

For my Extension English girls, this is great for a retreat from the global text:

Tell me about the Forest
You once called home
Dead Can Dance

Farewell now my sister
Up ahead there lies your road
And your conscience walks beside you
It's the best friend you will ever know
And the past is now your future
It bears witness to your soul
Make sure that the love you offer up
Does not fall on barren soil.

For the wind cries of late
In the whispering grass.
Our way of life is held
In the spinning wheels of chance.

I believe in the ways of an older law
When we used to dance to a different drum
And we are changing are ways
Yes we are taking on different roads
Tell me more about the forest
That you once called home.

For the wind cries of late
In the whispering leaves
And the sun will turn to waste
The heavens we build above.

Father teach your children
To treat our mother well
If we give her back her diamonds
She will offer up her pearl.

But I'm not bitter no I'm surviving
To face the world, to raise the future.
So why don't you tell me, come on and tell me
About the world you left behind.
Come on and tell me.

Thinking of You

A Perfect Circle

Lying all alone and restless unable to lose this image
Sleepless unable to focus on anything but your surrender
Tuggin a rhythm to the vision that's in my head
Tuggin a beat to the sight of you lying
So delighted with a new understanding
Something about a little evil that makes that unmistakable noise I was hearing Unmistakable sound I know so well
Spent and sighing with that look in your eye
Spent and sighing with a look on your face like
Sweet revelation sweet surrender
Thinking of you thinking of you
Sweet revelation sweet surrendering

Subtlety became an art for me on this site.. All the memories, all the torments, the past..